My choices concerning "sexy" clothing

Before I start I just wanted to say this is just my personal choice and don't necessarily care what other people do or wear because it's their right to do so and they're free to do so if it makes them happy. But this just concerns the reasons for my choice not to wear "Sexy" stuff everyday. I'm not trying to be a self-righteous bigot and I would be hypocrtical if I sat here and condemned everything about it. There's nothing necessarily bad about looking a certain way and it can be an art form if viewed in certain ways so I keep my mind open and don't see a major issue with it in general. My intention is definitly not to judge anyone because that would also be hypocritical of me and this is just my preferences, views and opinions; and as you know everyone has a different opinion and I'm by no mean right or wrong depending on how you view it.

I sometimes get the question "why don't you dress "sexier" when going out?" Needless to say I have a personal pretty non-religious reason for not doing this. One of my biggest reasons is that I don't feel dignified if I wear skimpy stuff often. I think this because I feel looked at as if I'm a tool or an object and I'm not a sex object I'm a person with thoughts and feelings and don't want to be looked upon as if I'm just a slab of meat meant for someone's enjoyment. And feel that I'm belittling my own sex and myself if I went out everyday in short shorts or a lot of cleavage showing. I just don't want certain parts of me to be looked at and I'd rather someone look me in the eye when they talk to me instead of looking down my shirt. Another reason is that I get enough attention on a daily basis and feel a certain amount of modesty about my body in certain environments would lead to a more respectable opinion about "people like me". I want to be viewed as myself but I aslo want to be viewed as "adult" and mature at the same time. Yeah that's contradictory but I do represent subcultures as a whole when I go out and interect with the general public daily and don't want to be seen as necessarily promiscuous and delinquent. I want to be myself as much as possible (which I will no matter what) but also give a civil and good impression with a certain amount of modesty and a good attitude; in order to give people a less narrow viewpoint of Goths etc because a lot of people may only know things about any subculture or group based on what they saw on television. And I want to defy those negative viewpoints of juvenile delinquincy, immaturity and total rebellion. I want them to see that I'm not just some angry rebel or oppositional defiant but I want them to see that I am a person and if I was showing every body part of mine that wouldn't further my goals. I do believe in the right enviornment skimpyness for me is fine such as a club, with close friends, or even something more private or a special occasion involving friends. I don't have a set of "black or white" morals or standards about sexyness but for me to feel comfortable doing so the social context and event has to be right. Like I said for me there is a time and place and school isn't one for me. Sure I go out in all black, a tophat, trenchcoat, crazy makeup, piercings, tattoos and boots but I feel that is going far enough in a day. Even I have my limits lol.

But I just want to make a fairly good impression on a daily basis to people who may be ignorant and full of misconceptions about a subculture or the lifestyle I like. And I also want to feel comfortable, respectable and less like an object to others. Like I said these are just my boundaries, preferences and hypocthetical judgments but there really isn't necessarily anything wrong with sexy clothing and people can do whatever they please it's their lives not mine and I refuse to condemn someone doing what makes them happy and who isn't hurting anyone. I also try not to judge by outward appearance because I'd be a hypocrite if I so blatantly did that and felt justified in doing so in the process. I refuse to be like the people who judged me for doing what made me happy so I live and let live even if I don't totally agree with some things. Again these are just my choices and they're fluent and change depending on the context of a situation or how I feel at the time. I'm not trying to condemn anyone because I believe in the concept of "live and let live" and everyone is free to do what makes them happy is these are just opinions and preferences on a normal day. I don't care what anyone else does and I'm sorry if this is offensive because I really didn't mean for it to be and I apologize ahead of time if it does bother anyone then just tell me and I won't say anything or be mad at you. Feel free to discuss on here and disagree with me because you are free to do so and this isn't about religious reasons or my "moral compass" necessarily.

Pictures of me and my life (fairly recent)

Sadly I don't have the pink/purple hair anymore but I'm losing weight my hair is colored black and I have a recent lip ring. But the picture of me with the crown on is my prom queen picture and the person with me is my boyfriend. Just so you know..........  :)

Quotes I like (will be updated as I find more I can relate to)

you think I'm an ignorant savage
You've been so many places I guess it must be so
But still I can not see, if the savage one is me
How can there be so much that you don't know?"
-pocahantas "colors of the wind"

"You think the only people who are people, are the people who look and think like you. But if you walk the footsteps of a stranger, you'll learn things you never knew you never knew."- pocahantas again



‎"A flower that blooms in adversity, is the most rare and beautiful of all"-Mulan

For some folks, death is a release, and for others death is an abomination, a terrible thing. But in the end, I'm there for all of them.
-- Death

"You can lie to your self and your minions
your can claim that you haven't a qualm
but you can never run or hide what you've done
from the eyes
the very eyes of Notre Dame"
-Hunchback of Notre Dame yet again
"I don't know if you can hear me, or if you're even there
i don't know if you would listen to a gypsy's prayer
yes I know I'm just an outcasts I shouldn't speak to you
still I see your face and wonder
were you once an outcast too?"
-Esmerelda "God help the outcasts"

"please help my people
the poor and downtrod
I thought we all were the children of God"

People once believed that when someone dies, a crow carries their soul to the Land of the Dead. But sometimes, something so bad happens that a terrible sadness is carried with it and the soul can not rest. Then sometimes, just sometimes, the crow can bring that soul back to put the wrong things right.-The Crow

"Judge Claude Frollo longed to purge the world of vice and sin
and he saw corruption everywhere, except within"- Bells of Notre Dame (I like this verse because they're talking about Frollo who was high ranking member of the church in Hunchback of Notre Dame and he was cruel to others with his own religious beliefs justifying his cruelty; I like this quote because I can relate to it."

"Cherish your life" is the motto this whole organization is built on. Cherish your life... your life.-SAW

Death is a surprise party. Unless of course you're already dead on the inside.-SAW



"Oftentimes, the victims themselves are blamed by being told that they must be doing something to "deserve" it. These victims are isolated and usually suffer in silence. The media doesn't broadcast the injuries or deaths of these silenced victims. Our nation doesn't share in their pain or extend sympathies to their survivors. Communities aren't outraged by these senseless and equally devastating crimes. The only outrage in our nation — in our communities — is when the psychological injuries caused by the bullying are externalized, and we have yet another school shooting."

Congratulations. You are still alive. Most people are so ungrateful to be alive. But not you. Not anymore.-SAW

“feel the same angst, confusion, anger, sadness and awkwardness teens always felt. But in 1998, you also worry if the kid in the next locker has a gun, or if your best friend will get pregnant or commit suicide. Teens are forced to be adults the minute they step into a high school hallway.”-Jennifer Love Hewitt

“If a man doesn't find something to die for he probably hasn't anything to live for.”

“Dying is an integral part of life, as natural and predictable as being born. But whereas birth is cause for celebration, death has become a dreaded and unspeakable issue to be avoided by every means possible in our modern society. Perhaps it is that”-Eilsabeth Kubler Ross

“A child does not have to be taught how to be happy or the ways of love. It is fear, hatred, & prejudice that have to be taught. And from the condition of the world we can see that unfortunately there are some very good teachers.”

“Words are some of the most powerful and important things I know....Language is the tool of love and the weapon of hatred. It's the bright red warning flag of danger--and the stone foundation of diplomacy and peace.”



Conformity is the jailer of freedom and the enemy of growth.
- John F. Kennedy

Always be a first-rate version of yourself, instead of a second-rate version of somebody else.
- Judy Garland

To go against the dominant thinking of your friends,
of most of the people you see every day,
is perhaps the most difficult act of heroism you can perform.
- Theodore H. White

To thine own self be true.
- William Shakespeare

It is our choices ... that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities.
- J. K. Rowling (Harry Potter and The Chamber of Secrets)

Believe that life is worth living and your belief will help create the fact.
- William James

I don't care what people think or say about me, I know who I am.
- Jonathan Davis
Believe that life is worth living and your belief will help create the fact.
William James

Every man dies. Not every man really lives.
William Wallace

Everything has been figured out, except how to live.
Jean-Paul Sartre

Here is the test to find whether your mission on Earth is finished: if you're alive, it isn't.
Richard Bach

In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on.
Robert Frost

It is not length of life, but depth of life.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself to be made a victim. Accept no one's definition of your life; define yourself.
Harvey Fierstein

People living deeply have no fear of death.
Anais Nin

The great use of life is to spend it for something that will outlast it.
William James

When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left, and could say, 'I used everything you gave me'.
Erma Bombeck

While there's life, there's hope.
Marcus Tullius Cicero

You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of. You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life.
Albert Camus

The snow goose need not bathe to make itself white.
Neither need you do anything but be yourself.
- Lao Tzu

Live and let live.
- Anonymous

One of the lessons that I grew up with was to always stay true to yourself and never let what somebody else says distract you from your goals. And so when I hear about negative and false attacks, I really don't invest any energy in them, because I know who I am.
- Michelle Obama

If you don't see yourself as a winner, then you cannot perform as a winner.
- Zig Ziglar


No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.
- Eleanor Roosevelt

Whenever you find yourself on the side of the majority, it is time to pause and reflect.
- Mark Twain

Having a personal opinion is great. Believing that one's personal opinion is absolute truth leads to most of the world's troubles.
- Jonathan Lockwood Huie

Forgiveness is the cleansing fire that burns away old regrets and resentments.
- Jonathan Lockwood Huie

have no need to conform to the stereotypes others have defined for me.
- Jonathan Lockwood Huie

You have enemies? Good. That means you've stood up for something, sometime in your life.
- Winston Churchill

“Politics... have always been the systematic organization of hatreds.”

“Hatred paralyses life; love releases it. Hatred confuses life; love harmonizes it. Hatred darkens life; love illuminates it.”MLKJ

“Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself to be made a victim. Accept no one's definition of your life, but define yourself.”-Harvey Firestone



"God help the outcats hungry from bith, show them the mercy they don't find on earth, God help my people we look to You still, God help the outcasts or nonbody will."-God help the outcasts from 'Hunchback of Notre Dame" (one of my favorite disney songs)

"The night and darkness holds much beauty for in it the stars shine and declare the glory of the Lord" quote off of christiangoth.com on the page "just cause I don't look like you" it just meant a lot to me

“I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it.” – Maya Angelou

"he's not completly gone as long as one person remembers his name"- Craig Ewart (quote at the end of the documentary "the suicide tourist")

"they say there's no such place as paradise, even if you search to the ends of the Earth there's nothing there, no matter how far you walk it's the same road ...It just goes on and on. But in spite of that, why am I so driven to find it? ...........A voice calls to me and says "search for paradise"-Kiba 'Wolf's Rain' (the very final quote and the meaning of the entire anime

"Act as if what you do makes a difference. It does." - William James

"Justice is love in calculation. Justice is love correcting that which revolts against love." – MLK

"We've all been sorry, we've all been hurt. But how we survive is what makes us who we are." - Rise Against

"If killing is your idea of justice, then you have no idea what justice is"

I've been actually really very pleased to see how much awareness was raised around bullying, and how deeply it affects everyone. You know, you don't have to be the loser kid in high school to be bullied. Bullying and being picked on comes in so many different forms.
Lady Gaga

It's always darkest just before the dawn.
So stay awake with me, let's prove them wrong.

And too much blood has flown from the wrists,
Of the children shamed for those they chose to kiss.
Who will rise to stop the blood?



"Don't be a drag just be a queen" -Lady Gaga

depression is a disease like any other that, if left untreated, can be fatal

when the world says give up, hope says try again.

"I don't wanna waste my time becoming another casualty of society, I will never fall in line become another victom of your conformity"-Sum 41 'fatlip'

hate almost silenced me forever once, but I won't let it now. It's a futile effort to try and silence me so anyone that tries shouldn't waste their time trying to make me shut up. You'd have to kill me to keep me quiet or break my spirit ever again, and even then you still couldn't stop me.- me

In my eyes, strength isn't about how much muscle you have or how much you can bench press. True strength is the level of courage to be yourself and defy in a world that encourages conformity, true strength is the ability to have confidence in one's self despite attacks from every direction, true strength is being able to stand up for something even though you know people won't like it and you will get harassed and hated, true strength is frgiveness and love, true strength is the courage to admit when you are wrong and to be honest about that, true strength is being yourself and staying true, and finally not giving a slightest damn what anyone else has to say about it.- me

I became insane, with long intervals of horrible sanity.
Edgar Allan Poe

‎"An eye for an eye only ends up making the whole world blind. "-Mohandas Gandhi

"Never say die"-69 eyes

"buildings burn, people, die but rea love is forever" -The Crow

"let he who is without sin cast the first stone"-Jesus

"If I have a pulse then I must have a purpose"

"Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem"

"if life's disabilities have left you outcast, bullied, or teased, rejoice and love yourself today, cause baby you were born this way"-Lady Gaga

"Everyone dies, but if we have no purpose in life then we are already dead"-Kiba "wolfs rain"

"my own personal tragedies and facing my own mortality, has made me grow up too early; but I have learned so much and became the better person" -me

"It's always too early to quit"-Norman vincent peale

"Although the world is full of suffering, it is also full of overcoming."-Helen Keller

"never give in, if your'e going through hell then keep going"-Winston Churchill

"Capital punishment is the most premeditated of murders." -Albert Camus

All suicides have the responsibility of fighting against the temptation of suicide. Every one of them knows very well in some corner of his soul that suicide, though a way out, is rather a mean and shabby one, and that it is nobler and finer to be conquered by life than to fall by one's own hand-Hermann Hesse

"We're all pretty bizarre. Some of us are just better at hiding it."
-The Breakfast Club

"The great pleasure in life is doing what people say you cannot do."
-Walter Bagehot

"The world is a dangerous place, not because of those who do evil, but because of those who look on and do nothing."
-Albert Einstein

"We enjoy the night, the darkness, where we can do things that aren't acceptable in the light. Night is when we slake our thirst."
-William Hill


"The darkness that surrounds us cannot hurt us. It is the darkness in your own heart you should fear."
-Silvetris

"Not all those who wander are lost."
-J.R.R. Tolkien

"While I thought that I was learning how to live, I have been learning how to die."
-Leonardo Da Vinci

"All the darkness of the world cannot put out the light of one small candle."
-Anonnymous

"The day that I die will be the day that I shut my mouth."
-Sublime

"I have often thought upon death, and I find it the least of all evils."
-Sir Francis Bacon

And by the way, everything in life is writable about if you have the outgoing guts to do it, and the imagination to improvise. The worst enemy to creativity is self-doubt.
Sylvia Plath


Dying is an art, like everything else. I do it exceptionally well. I do it so it feels like hell. I do it so it feels real. I guess you could say I've a call.
Sylvia Plath


Nothing stinks like a pile of unpublished writing.
Sylvia Plath


Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there, wondering, fearing, doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before.
Edgar Allan Poe

First of all, do any of you here think it's a crime to help a suffering human end his agony? Any of you think it is? Say so right now. Well, then, what are we doing here?
Jack Kevorkian


Listen, when you take my liberty away, you've taken away more-something more precious than life. I mean, what good is a life without liberty? Huh? None.
Jack Kevorkian

A lot of people don't want to make their own decisions. They're too scared. It's much easier to be told what to do.
Marilyn Manson

Find out what's really out there. I never said to be like me, I say be like you and make a difference.
Marilyn Manson

In the end we're all Jerry Springer Show guests, really, we just haven't been on the show.
Marilyn Manson

Is adult entertainment killing our children? or is killing our children entertaining our adults?
Marilyn Manson

People tend to associate anyone who looks and behaves differently with illegal or immoral activity.
Marilyn Manson

The burden of originality is one that most people don't want to accept. They'd rather sit in front of the TV and let that tell them what they're supposed to like, what they're supposed to buy, and what they're supposed to laugh at.
Marilyn Manson

We live in a society of victimization, where people are much more comfortable being victimized than actually standing up for themselves.
Marilyn Manson

If men can develop weapons that are so terrifying as to make the thought of global war include almost a sentence for suicide, you would think that man's intelligence and his comprehension... would include also his ability to find a peaceful solution.
Dwight D. Eisenhower

Life is only a long and bitter suicide, and faith alone can transform this suicide into a sacrifice.
Franz Liszt

Suicide sometimes proceeds from cowardice, but not always; for cowardice sometimes prevents it; since as many live because they are afraid to die, as die because they are afraid to live.
Charles Caleb Colton

That's the thing about suicide. Try as you might to remember how a person lived his life, you always end up thinking about how he ended it.
Anderson Cooper

Goth culture, as mired in the past as it is, even it goes through changes, so Goth when I was growing up is not what it is now. When I think of Goth culture as it is at the moment I think of mall culture.
Jhonen Vasquez

I'm definitely incredibly attracted to the aesthetic of what is typically deemed goth stuff, but. A lot of my experience growing up was in being around that kind of thing, and it's just what sinks into a person's brain.
Jhonen Vasquez

"we need Goth control, not gun control"- not sure who said this but it's so ridiculous and incorrect it's funny enough to be a favorite. Sometimes the most uninformed quotes are the funniest

There are no set of over-arching beliefs or values, no simple definitions, and no generalizations that are universally true within the Gothic subculture-author unknown

"It means cthulu is going to get rid of all the posers and make everything coll and black and stuff. IIt's going to be like a Nine Inch Nails concert that goes on forever"-goth kids from sp (one of my favorite lines ever

God pours life into death and death into life without a drop being spilled. ~Author Unknown


All say, "How hard it is that we have to die" - a strange complaint to come from the mouths of people who have had to live. ~Mark Twain


I'm not afraid of death. It's the stake one puts up in order to play the game of life. ~Jean Giraudoux, Amphitryon, 1929

The fear of death follows from the fear of life. A man who lives fully is prepared to die at any time. ~Mark Twain

"If the Devil is real, then God must be real, too."

"great men don't want an audience when they die"

Michael Moore: Why not use Gandhi's way? He didn't have guns, and he beat the British Empire.

Michael Moore: If you were to talk directly to the kids at Columbine or the people in that community, what would you say to them if they were here right now?
Marilyn Manson: I wouldn't say a single word to them I would listen to what they have to say, and that's what no one did.

Marilyn Manson: When I was a kid growing up, music was the escape. That's the only thing that had no judgments. You know, you put on a record, and it's not going to yell at you for dressing the way you do. It's going to make you feel better about it.

“The worst sin toward our fellow creatures is not to hate them, but to be indifferent to them: that's the essence of inhumanity.” George Bernard Shaw

"Although rarely labeled as such, "bullying" is a crime. It injures, maims, destroys and kills. Until a proactive approach is taken against crimes of bullying, a reactive approach to crimes of school shootings is futile.

"Bullying is a crime in which the perpetrators are rarely punished and the victims rarely receive justice. This crime is usually repetitive and a victim is injured and traumatized over and over again. When bullying claims yet another victim, few notice and even fewer care.

Entry #1 what you need to know about me.

Before I started posting my thoughts, feelings, and just stuff I find meaningful on here; I thought it would be appropriate to introduce myself first. My name is Ashley Prichard, I live on campus at Marshall University in Huntington West Virginia. You could call me quite the oddball and as you can tell by my picture I identify as "Goth" but the only label I need is myself, I do as I please, I wear what I please, I listen to whatever music I please, and will write about whatever I feel I need to on here. But as I continue blogs on here I know a few subjects I will probably be sharing thoughts on and those things are :discrimination, bullying, suicide, hate, my developing thoughts about the world, and whatever I feel needs to be commented on. I write about these things often because I've seen it at it's worst and survived a lot. But this blog won't only revolve around those topics but a variety of other issues. Some ideas on here maybe controversial to some people and groups but it's my opinion, and I must please ask that no one start some massive argument on anything on here, because any arguing will be deleted. Everyone must respect each others views, my own and just have mutual respect. Anything I consider excessively offensive will be deleted without warning. You can comment against something someone or myself says as long as it's intelligent and not slandering someone else. Basically just have some respect. Anyways I'm also a blogger on the wasteland now known as myspace as well as facebook so look me up on there I think I already put a link down.
Thanks
sincerely Ashley Prichard